Why I haven't enjoyed planning my Wedding.

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Can we address the fact that I get married in three months time, how did that time fly by so quickly? How have I not sent out my invites? How have I not finalised my bridesmaid dresses? These are all serious questions that need answering but for now we are going to just talk about my experience up until this point. To be honest, and I'm going to keep it real with ya'll, planning this wedding hasn't really been the greatest experience of my life, in fact it has been stressful, time consuming, expensive and emotionally draining. When I started planning I had these ideas of grandeur, of all the fun things I would do towards the lead up, all the fun I would have planning and choosing invites and decorations, when in actual fact it has been nothing like I imagined. First off Dan and I are paying for our wedding by ourselves entirely which has put some financial pressure on us thankfully I have been very lucky to have collaborated with a number of people allowing for substantial savings but still it has been an added pressure. Secondly his year is perhaps the biggest in my personal career with blogging. In January I announced I was chosen as Marie Claire's Curve Columnist writing once a month in the print magazine. as well as signing with the management agency MiLk meaning I am now represented professionally. The start of the year I  flew off to NYC for my biggest campaign yet with Evans as well as a trip to Portugal with the brand Curvy Kate amongst working on a number of projects with brands. Balancing this with a full time 9-5 job has added a fair bit of stress on me, planning  became  much more difficult when I was trying to balance everything else in my life. The guilt I have experienced for being so behind with my planning has been overwhelming, I've cried a lot, and honestly at times regretted choosing to have it in the UK. As well as this, weddings most definitely highlight close personal relationships more than ever, in both a good and bad way. There is a hell of a lot of politics involved with planning a wedding and I for sure have seen the pressure it can cause and that part has not been fun at all.

The idea of planning a wedding is so romanticised that when you feel crap about the experience you feel like you are the only one. Pinterest displays 5 million photos of perfect weddings and it kinda makes you feel like crap sometimes. Yes I know the day is about Dan and I and yes it will be incredible I'm sure but I just wanted to write something to any fellow bride-to-be's out there to say, if you aren't enjoying it its perfectly fine, its okay to struggle, its okay to be stressed. It is so hard to plan a wedding, have a busy career, see friends, have holidays, and spend time with your partner. Life is busy for all of us so don't feel like you have failed if it isn't running smoothly. It will all work out and it will be the best day of your life. Nothing puts a smile on my face more knowing I get to marry my best friend soon so that is what I am focusing on right now and so should you too. Tell me in the comments below if you felt the same way as I would love to hear your view. Oh and see below some gorge Bridal related gifts for you and your squad to enjoy! 


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