I don't know what has been with me lately, I am feeling rather deflated. My blog is normally a place where I come to share what has been going on in my life, the ups, the downs, the Instagram's you catch my drift. Lately days have been emulsifying into weeks. I couldn't tell you what I was doing last Wednesday but I know sure as hell that I was busy. My emails have piled up ( I sound like a twat saying that I know) my life has just been on high speed. But last night I received some really sad news, something that made me stop and be quiet and calm.
Last night I found out that a friend of mine had passed away. It was a shock to my inner core. Dan and I had met our friend Richard whilst on holiday in Turkey, we spent our entire time with him and his GF and we remained friends even after the holiday. We were lucky that Rich and Stef lived not so far away from us in South East London and Rich just worked around the corner from where I work. We maintained a great friendship, which included dinners at Wagamama's, Chinese and film night and lunch time meet ups laughing about the good times on holiday. Richard was such a good guy, a kind soul with a passion for life. Always smiling or making someone laugh. Last night when I received the call with the bad news I felt sick. Richard had passed away on the 4th of May, I hadn't spoken to him in a while and I hadn't even been on is Facebook as I just always assumed he was there, smiling away. How terrible is that.. my friend had died and I didn't even know. I have this huge block of guilt, how did I not notice that someone I considered a friend has tragically lost his life? Am I so swept up in my own life that I didn't notice my friends around me? I know that sounds crazy but we really don't know how lucky we are to have the opportunity to wake up and go on with our days. That we have the chance to moan about the commute, or the weather, or how busy we are. Richard won't get to do that anymore and it made me think how lucky I really am to have ever had the chance to meet him. He blessed mine and Dan's lives for a short time, but we will never forget him.
Take some time today to tell someone that you love them. x